I have done it!!!

I have joined Weight Watchers!!

I am sure that every women has had issues with her weight at some stage. 
I have come to realise that for me, my weight is always going to be my struggle.  It has taken 32 years for me to realise this. 
I look back on photos of myself growing up and think, 'oh, I was a wee bit chubs!' 
I have dieted and exercised in the hopes of becoming skinny but unfortunately each time I have lost weight I seemed to have found it again. 

Towards the end of my 29th year I decided it was time to take control of my life and get healthy.  I lost around 23kgs over the course of a year.   I felt great!  I still had more to loose but I was feeling a lot more confident and healthier as a result of the loss.
To be honest I did not find it too difficult loosing the weight.  I enjoyed the challenge and rewards of making healthy meals and eating well all the time.  I loved the gym and had great support there.  

At around the  18kg mark I met Andy (hubby).  I was still dedicated to the weight loss however it became more difficult because I could not be so selfish with my time.  I had other things to do now.  I had hot dates and weekends of loved up bliss.
I still managed to get to the gym around 3 or so times a week and tried really hard to continue to eat well.  This was really difficult because my routine was different.
We moved in together after 5 months of dating and I started being the domestic goddess that I was destined to be.   Baking, entertaining, cooking lovely meals. 
And then at the start of 2010 I hurt my back.  I was in pain for around 4 months and could not physically go to the gym because I had not healed.
When my back was better I did not feel confident doing physical activity. I was worried that if I did something I would hurt my back and be at square one again.  I would get back into the gym and then get busy with work (very good excuse) and then be back at square one yet again.

What I am getting at is that unfortunately weight has crept on over the past year and a half.
I have put on around 15kg!!! 
I am really embarrassed about that.  I feel like all my hard work was for nothing.

I love the feeling of loosing weight.
I love the compliments that come with it.
I love the higher energy levels
The feeling of being in control.

Before we went to Bali I got back into regular sessions at the gym and started watching what I was eating again. I found it a lot harder this time around and did not get the results I did previously.

A week or so ago back it dawned on me that I need that external motivation now to loose weight.  I need to be accountable to someone.  I need to have a goal to work towards.
I had been to Weight Watchers before and it is a great programme.

So tonight a good friend and I make our way to our first meeting.  We felt embarrassed as we had our first weigh in and then as we shared our starting weights with each other.

I am excited about what lies ahead for us.
I am looking forward to the results I will see in the near future.
I am happy and proud of myself (and my friend) for taking control again.
I am looking forward to summer where I will feel a bit better about myself when I show a little bit of skin.

Wish me luck, I am sure at times I am going to need it!!!!